Conduct Unbecoming

She had not known about the medevac helicopter. She had seen the scar on his calf sometime when she was exploring his body as he was exploring hers. She filed it quietly and did not press.

He told her of spending his share of what his father had left him and his two other siblings at Heligruppe and getting certified to fly what he fixed, not waiting for the Army. All focused on one goal; Fort Rucker.

He'd shared, so she did too. She'd told him of her surveillance and gathering of evidence then, and he had sternly insisted on joining what little was left of his inheritance to her efforts.

She had resisted, but when he cornered and kissed her in a dark alleyway afterward, pressing her against the wall, his hand in her panties, using what he had learned to easily carry her to the edge and over, she had acquiesced - even if only so he could do it again.

Now, Graham looked at the result for a long time without speaking.

"I have copies," she said. "Multiple locations. If anything happens to these, the copies surface automatically." She paused. "I've been documenting since Bernkastel-Kues."

He looked up from the tablet. Something had shifted in his face - the triumph was gone, replaced by something she rarely saw on him. Recalibration.

"How did you..." He stopped. Started again. "You knew."

"Yes."

"You knew the whole time."

"Yes, Graham."

He stared at her. "And you said nothing."

"Yes."

"You kept sleeping with me."

"Yes."

He gestured at the tablet. "You just collected all of this and said nothing, then filed for divorce and moved to Alabama." His voice had gone strange, almost disbelieving. "Why? Why go through all...?"

She looked at him across the desk. "Andy's West Point application. My promotion. Your father. Senator Marsh." She said it without inflection. "I waited until I didn't need to wait anymore."

He was quiet for a moment. She watched him processing it, rearranging what he thought he knew about the last year of their marriage.

"You must really hate me."

"Not anymore," she said. She tilted her head. "I actually loved you. I loved you so very much. And I kept wishing you were the man I thought you were. But you were not."

Another long silence.

"Who is he?" Graham said. "The man in the video."

She had been deciding this since she knew this was going to happen. She had decided it before he walked through the door.

"His name is Nathan Miller," she said. "You've met him. You know him. He's the husband of the woman you've been fucking for the last year."

The silence that followed was total.

"Staff Sergeant Nathan Miller," she further clarified, just to be cruel. "Army Aviation." She paused. "We met on a joint operation. Then we compared notes. Then we started doing... other things."

The color that came into Graham's face was not the color of guilt. It was something uglier than that - wounded pride colliding with the outrage of a man who had been outmaneuvered.

"An enlisted man," he said, voice a snarl.

"Yes."

"You're leaving me for an enlisted man." He said it as though the sentence didn't make sense in English, as though it needed to be repeated to be comprehended.

"I didn't leave you for anyone," she said evenly. "I'm leaving you because you betrayed me, you betrayed our marriage. Nathan came later. That it was his wife... that was just, serendipity."

"An enlisted man, Kayleigh..."

"I love him," she said.

That stopped him completely.

She had not planned to say it. It had simply arrived, without announcement. Because it was true. She held his gaze and didn't take it back.

"You love him," Graham repeated, incredulous.

"Yes."

He looked at her for a long moment. Then he laughed - a short, incredulous sound. "You're going to throw away your career for a sergeant."

"I'm not throwing away anything." She held his gaze. "Unless you are too."

He stared at her. "The UCMJ..."

"Article 134," she said. "Conduct prejudicial to good order and discipline." She tilted her head slightly. "I've spent some time thinking about what it says about a Lieutenant Colonel who conducts a sustained affair with the wife of a Staff Sergeant in his own service." She paused. "His own service, Graham. Same Army. That's not a gray area."

He stared at her.

"You have a video of me with an enlisted man," she said. "I have a year of documentation of you with that same enlisted man's wife." She let that sit for a moment. "So we have ourselves a Catch-22."

"I will bury you," he said quietly.

"You can try," she said. "But if anything happens to me, if Nathan has anything happen to him that seems even a little suspicious, I'll send everything I have to every paper I can, to both Senator Marsh and the Committee chairman, and to the Army Inspector General. Every photograph. Every date. Every location." She looked at him steadily. "Including Arlington. Including last week."

He said nothing.

"Sign the papers," she said. "Clean break. We're done. I take nothing from you and you take nothing from me. You go your way and I go mine and none of this ever surfaces." She paused. "Or don't sign them, play hardball, and we find out together how your father and his friends feel about videos and photographs."

The room was very quiet.

Graham looked at the tablet on her desk. He looked at his phone in his hand. He looked at her.

Then he said several things that she allowed to pass over her without response, because she had expected them and because none of them changed anything and because she had sat in a rental car outside a bed and breakfast in Bernkastel-Kues and cried for seven minutes and had not cried once since.

He called her a slut and a whore. And she didn't mind because when it came to Nathan Miller, she was all of those and more. Maybe the angle hadn't allowed Graham's investigator to capture her taking his member in her mouth with no small amount of enthusiasm.

At last Graham Palmer went to the door. He opened it, turned back to look at her one final time with an expression she had no interest in interpreting, and left.

She listened to his footsteps go down the corridor.

She tapped on the tablet. She selected the files, zipped them, and sent them to his email. The subject line and the message body had the same text. 'Sign the papers.'

She returned to her work.

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The gown she wore for the private celebration four days later in the little suite in the hotel in Panama City Beach was dark and sheer with no covering for her breasts. Or her genitals.

He ordered room service and she had worn heels and they had danced in the living room. He was wearing his uniform with his new rank and she was in her gown with her breasts exposed.

Because what woman, even if she wore one herself, didn't love a man in uniform?

CW2 Nathan Miller held and kissed her constantly as he shed his uniform. She giggled as he bent and kissed each erect nipple before returning to her lips. Gasped as he freely touched and penetrated her with his fingers.

She was already ridiculously wet when he carried her to the bedroom. He found out as he fed between her legs and then when she welcomed him inside her with a loud and happy gasp.

"Slow, Ser..." She stopped, giggled and lifted her head up to lick over his smiling lips. "CWO Nathan Miller. Take your time and fuck me. All night."

She could say that because there was no violation of the Uniform Code of Military Justice if she let a commissioned Warrant Officer into her body.

Especially since Graham had signed, shockingly quickly. The next day, in fact. It had surprised her when she opened the email from Major Diane Russo and saw it. Diane had sent a scanned copy of every signed page in a PDF.

She had printed the document to show him after the graduation ceremony and he had kissed her out in the open. She was in civilian clothes - another wrap dress - so it raised no eyebrows. But it was special nonetheless. Even if she had come in uniform, there would be no fraternization or adultery charges.

Then they had gotten into his truck and he had driven them to the beach, holding her hand or running his hand on her bared thigh.

He had three weeks before Initial Entry Rotary Wing training - fourteen months in another pipeline and generally only seeing him on weekends. Then another six weeks in the Maintenance Test Pilot Course.

So she intended to make the most of the time she could have him all to herself, modesty entirely compromised.

"Is that an order, Major Alvarez?"

"Yes, that's a fucking order!" she growled, moving her hips, telling him to get to it.

He laughed. Then he obeyed.

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The flight from Montgomery to Reagan National was two hours and twenty minutes and Lieutenant Colonel Graham Palmer spent most of it looking out the window at nothing.

He did not drink anything on the plane. He had wanted to. He had looked at the drinks cart when it came past and thought about bourbon and decided against it because he did not want to arrive in DC with alcohol on his breath and the looseness around the eyes that came with it. He needed to think.

He was not, right then, thinking clearly.

The cab from Reagan took forty minutes in traffic and he sat in the back and looked at the city moving past the windows and thought about Kayleigh Alvarez - no longer Palmer on her nametag - sitting behind her desk in her office at Maxwell with her hands folded and her face composed, looking at him the way she looked at a problem she had already solved.

He had not seen that coming.

He had not seen any of it coming, which was the part that sat in his chest like something hot and undigested. He was a man who saw things coming. It was one of the things he was genuinely good at - reading rooms, reading people, identifying the play before it developed. His father had taught him that. His Uncle Walter had refined it. He had spent his entire career moving ahead of the situation rather than behind it.

And somehow his wife - his wife, who had sat across breakfast tables and dinner tables and had kissed him goodbye and had turned toward him in the dark and had given him absolutely no indication, for the better part of a year - had been running an operation against him the entire time.

He had underestimated her. He could admit that, here in the back of a cab with no one to witness it. He had underestimated her because it was more comfortable to believe that the woman sitting across from him at dinner had no clue. Because believing that required no adjustment to the plan.

The plan.

He had been building toward it since his second year at West Point, quietly, methodically, the way his grandfather had taught him - not as ambition, which was common and undignified, but as a natural extension of service, and the legacy that two generations of decorated officers had established as the family's contribution to the republic. His father's four stars. His grandfather's three. And then a different kind of star - the kind that his uncle wore on his lapel, that opened different doors than the ones the military had opened.

A career in uniform. A star and a title to show for it. Then a run for a Senate seat in his native state as a Democrat, free to mouth every progressive shibboleth du jour, inoculated against any question about his patriotism by his years of service.

And that of his wife.

Kayleigh Alvarez had fit the role perfectly.

His desire for her had not been part of any plan. She had been striking, sharp and had worn her uniform the way very few people wore a uniform, like it was made for her rather than issued.

He had pursued her genuinely and had felt true joy when she stood in white beside him. And yet, somewhere in the second year of the marriage he had begun to find the feeling less important than her utility.

A progressive flag officer and veteran with a wife that was a beautiful mix of Filippino, Portuguese and Dominican. In uniform. The kind of profile that consultants charged six figures to construct.

And now she was in Alabama filing for divorce, vigorously copulating with a Staff Sergeant - an enlisted man.

It was galling. Even if he had been sleeping with the man's wife for a year. Kay had even sent the documentation, the proof of it, to his email before he reached the main corridor from her office.

'Sign the papers.'

He had checked the email in the cab from Maxwell to the airport. The subject line. The message body. The same two words. And the attachment, which he did not open because he already knew what was in it.

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The Arlington house was dark when he arrived. His name was on the deed, his father's connections smoothing the financing - a townhouse in a street of townhouses that had the right address and the right neighbors for the next phase of what he was building. He had envisioned Kay here.

He turned the key and went inside, stood in the hallway and looked at the boxes stacked against the wall.

She had been precise in cutting off any connection they had. Any plans with her in it.

The knock came sixty-four minutes later.

He had just poured himself another bourbon when the knock came and he went to the door and opened it.

Brenda Nolan - not Miller anymore - stood on his doorstep in a coat he recognized, a bag over her elbow, her eyes narrowed, lips pouted.

He looked at her.

She looked at him.

"You've been avoiding me," she said.

"I was in Alabama," he said.

"And before Alabama you were avoiding me." She stepped past him into the hallway without being invited, the way she had started doing some weeks ago, a small territorial claim he had let pass because the alternative was a conversation he hadn't wanted to have. She stopped and looked at the boxes. "What is all this?"

"My things. From Germany."

She turned to look at him. "And what about... her?"

"She's not here."

Brenda looked at the boxes for another moment. Then she looked back at him.

"You've been introducing me to other people," she said. "Other officers. Tom Whitfield. Leonard Carver. Brendan Layne." She paused. "You're trying to pass me off."

"I'm trying to build you a network," he said. "That's not passing you off. That's..."

"Don't." Her voice was quiet and level. "Don't do that. I know what it is."

He drank his bourbon. She watched him do it.

He had met her on a Thursday afternoon in Kaiserslautern, when he'd just arrived in Germany, before Kay had joined him.

He had been looking for off-base accommodation and she had been at the agency. His agent had been a man named Stefan, but she had smiled at him across the office and spoken to him with an American accent. He had taken her number and asked her out for coffee. He had known he looked good in his Class Bs and she had clearly liked what she was seeing.

He had liked what he saw. His wife had the exaggerated body of a glamour model and he enjoyed it immensely. Brenda had the body of runway model with its own delights.

She had told him she was married. She had said it at their next meeting, over wine, matter-of-factly - her husband was an E-5 going to E-6, Army aviation maintenance, a good man. She'd said it with a flatness that told him it no longer counted. He had noted the husband and decided the husband was not his problem. She was too beautiful and he had wanted her too much for the husband to be a serious consideration.

Two days later they had entered a hotel in Landstuhl for the first time and the husband had ceased to be any consideration at all.

He had not expected her to follow him to DC.

She had appeared three weeks after he arrived. She'd quit her job at the real estate agency and her marriage in the same week, presenting herself at his door with a suitcase and a determined look.

Luckily she had come very early in the morning and he had handled it - gotten her a position at a think tank through his father's board connections, set her up in an apartment in Georgetown - because handling things was what he did, and because she was still beautiful and the sex was still very good, and because having her close was easier than having her at a distance and unmanaged.

He had never intended to leave Kayleigh though. That had never been part of any version of the plan.

But Kay was in Alabama with a Staff Sergeant and Brenda was standing in his hallway.

They ended up in bed, because they usually ended up in bed. She was as good as she had always been and he lost himself in it for a while and didn't think about Maxwell or the tablet or the words in an email subject line.

Afterward she was lying with her head on his chest when his phone rang on the nightstand. He reached to pick it up, and grunted when he saw it was from his father, and chose to let it ring out.

"There's an email from your wife," she said, shamelessly looking at the screen, seeing the notification.

He went still beside her, the rage flooding through him again.

She noticed. "What's wrong?" Her eyes narrowed as he remained silent. "What happened in Alabama? Is that where... she is?"

He looked at the ceiling. He was tired. The bourbon had finally arrived and the decision not to tell her that had seemed so sensible an hour ago now seemed like more effort than it was worth.

So he told her.

He told her about receiving the divorce letter at his Pentagon office, about finding out that Kay had engineered a posting back to the CONUS. He told her about hiring an investigator and the Magnolia House footage and her office at the Air University in Maxwell AFB. About the tablet she had turned around and the year of documentation - from Germany to DC to this house in Arlington. He told her about the guaranteed mutually assured destruction, and the three words in the email with the attachment.

He did not tell her the enlisted man's name at first. But he told her enough.

"A Staff Sergeant," he said. "Army. She met him on a joint operation." He paused. "Aviation maintenance."

He felt the change as Brenda stiffened against his chest. "You know who he is, don't you?"

He told her.

She was quiet for a long time. Long enough that he could have thought she had gone to sleep if this were any other night.

"He signed the divorce papers so quickly," she said finally. "He didn't even try to look for me." Another pause. "I thought maybe he was too hurt. Too wounded. But he just didn't fucking care."

Her voice had gone sharp at the end. Graham said nothing.

"So he knew," she said at last. "He already knew about us. Before I filed."

"They both knew," Graham growled.

The room was quiet.

She reached up and kissed him then, soft and deliberate, and he let her, because it was easier than talking and because she was very good at making things easier than they were.

She kissed him until the tension left his shoulders and he stopped staring at the ceiling. Then she got him hard, using her hand and mouth and she had climbed on top of him and taken his hands to her small but perfectly shaped breasts.

He came, and then he went into a bourbon aided sleep.

He woke at 0610 to his alarm and the gray light of a Northern Virginia morning coming through curtains he hadn't closed and Brenda sitting up bare breasted beside him, looking at him with a considering expression, a slight curl to her lip.

He looked at her.

She looked back.

"I know your PIN," she said. "The one for your phone."

He sat up slowly.

"I didn't send anything to anyone," she said. "Yet." She held his phone out toward him. "But I have everything she sent you. Copied to multiple places. If I don't click, emails get sent." She set the phone down on the sheet between them. "I have everything. Every photograph. Every date. Every location. Germany and here."