Maia Laaning

During the ensuing afterglow, Sylvia Salumets became the primary focus of discussion. Obviously Sylvia was a newcomer to the sexual triad Riina had established with the brothers Varblane within the previous two weekends, and hence there was a curiosity to knowing Sylvia better. It turned out that Sylvia indeed had an intriguing story to tell.

Rasmus as her specified date for the Corp! Sororitas Estoniae 'kommerss' started the ball rolling by asking, "So Sylvia, for this in essence is a blind date with you. Riina had beforehand advised you were a lesbian but that you weren't averse to occasionally having straight sex with a man. I must say seeing you with Riina in that initial show you two put on before my brother and me, I certainly can accept that you truly love having sex with a woman.

"But then thereafter you and I had straight sex of the kind that would be described as only vanilla sex but still you seemed to have enjoyed an intense orgasm as a result. I'm well aware that women can fake their orgasms but your reaction of excitement as far as I could tell was genuine. In addition I do recall our conversation at the 'kommerss' wherein you averred that you intend to become a mother of four children via the old fashioned straight sex copulation as opposed to submitting to artificial insemination.

"From what I can deduce from our conversation you will end up either as a single mom or since Estonia has finally legalized same sex marriage you might actually marry a woman. To my mind that begs the question, who are you and what is your true sexual orientation?"

Sylvia replied, "I'm not sure how I should truly label myself. I like to think that perhaps I'm merely a unique woman. In growing up I didn't think I was much different than any other female. I was kind of attracted to boys like all my other straight girlfriends. I had several dates while in high school and I lost my virginity about a month after my eighteenth birthday. That first sexual experience was OK, but not as thrilling as I had anticipated. My main reaction to it was simply to consciously acknowledge that I'm a woman now, no longer a girl.

"It so happened that about a week later one of my girlfriends, Eva Veermäe, invited me to her place for a sleepover on the following Saturday night as her parents were gone for a weekend junket to ski the Alps in Switzerland. Now I did have a suspicion that Eva might be a lesbian, but I was not sure given the antipathy towards homosexuality which has been prevalent in the minds of most Estonians. Of course, things have gotten better since legislation under the Kaja Kallas administration legalized same sex marriages and provided same equal rights for gays vis à vis to straight people.

"In any case, being somewhat adventurous I accepted the invitation without any fear or trepidation. I had the attitude that what happens, well it will just happen. As it turned out Eva had a quite sophisticated plan to seduce me to Sapphic intimacy. As I arrived at eight o'clock in the evening, Eva immediately suggested we switch into our pajamas, since it was a sleepover occasion after all. Also, an order of takeout pizza arrived shortly after I was in the house.

"I suspected beforehand that Eva might immediately make such a suggestion right from the start of the evening. So, I had first dressed myself in my modest two-piece pajamas, and thus my street clothes covered my pajamas. We had meandered to living room and I had noticed that Eva's pajamas were draped over one of the arms of the sofa. Accordingly, I kicked off my shoes and casually removed my outer clothing including my bra, but for convenience I was not wearing any panties. I thereupon, placed my clothes on the other arm of the sofa.

"I surmised that Eva was a little disappointed in my ingenuity, as I had formed the notion that she was interested in getting a first glimpse of my naked body. Anyway, whether or not my speculation was accurate, Eva just as casually undressed herself to complete nudity, and nonchalantly just discarded her clothes to fall willy nilly on the floor out of the way, before donning on her pajamas.

"I must say I gasped at seeing the stunning naked beauty of Eva. Although her face was not particularly special nor outstandingly eye appealing, her nude female body was just perfect for her body frame and would be deliciously mouth-watering to any and all of her lovers, male or female. I have to admit I was jealous as I envied her beauty wishing I could be close to being comparable to her."

Whether or not Sylvia consciously intended to solicit a complement to diffuse her humble self-deprecatory remark regarding her pulchritude, nevertheless, both brothers were compelled to protest. In unison, they declared, "Oh no Sylvia, you have nothing to be uneasy about as to your beauty. Hell, if you were known to be straight, you would have the pick of the acknowledged desirable studs on campus at the University."

Even Riina chimed in, "Oh yes Sylvia, I truly envy your beauty."

Sylvia continued her narrative, "thank you all for your kind words. In any case, the entertainment Eva had ostensibly planned was to watch movies, eat some pizza and drink some beer. The beer of course, was "Viviani Originaalpruul". That living room of the Veermäe residence contained a 100 inch flat screen television monitor plus connection to a DVD player. Given the size of the television screen, and while sitting on the sofa, with the coffee table in front of us containing the beer and pizza, projected an impression for us of watching a movie in a big wide screen theatre with the added benefit of having more substantial and satisfying snacks conveniently available to us.

"The first movie which Eva had selected to be viewed pursuant to utilizing the DVD player was a French movie titled "La Vie d'Adèle" which I understand in English was changed to "Blue Is The Warmest Color." The version of this DVD movie which Eva possessed was in the French language, but contained readable subtitles in English. Alas there was no DVD available that contained either dubbing or sub titles in Estonian. Now I'm fairly knowledgeable of the English language but Eva was more facile so that she could translate for me anything which I found difficult to comprehend. Mind you the plot of this movie was not all that intricate such that missing a sentence or two in the dialogue would not hinder one's understanding of the story line for this movie.

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"The story enfolds as an erotic lesbian romantic drama film. The film follows Adèle, a French teenager, who discovers desire and freedom when Emma an older woman, an aspiring painter, and sporting an exotic blue hairstyle, enters her life. It depicts their sexual relationship from Adèle's high school years to her early adult life and career as a schoolteacher. The eroticism of the movie is rendered more lascivious by the display of various graphic nude lesbian sexual scenes, which are described in movie industry lexicon as simulated sexual scenes. I understand that movies where the actors actually do engage in sex are called ones which contain non simulated sex scenes. Such precise wording, kind of gives one the opposite impression of how boldly visual such a scene really is.

"Any way at the end of the movie, Eva slyly asked, 'So what did you think of this movie?' Now I like to think of myself as not being clueless, so I wasn't shocked at the direction Eva's question was trying to elicit. But still I naïvely answered, 'Well I'm aware that there are girls who prefer to make love with other girls to the exclusion of guys. I must admit I've always been curious by such phenomenon and wondered what it would feel like. I find this movie to be very intimate in explaining the attraction of making love to another girl.'

"Eva seemed to have been delighted by my answer and she responded, 'Well, this next movie should pique your curiosity even more.' She then inserted a new DVD which turned out to be a two hour length video featuring a compilation of lesbian sexual activity scenes. Each scene lasted some ten to twelve minutes: mostly couples; a few threesomes; a trio of four female group sex episodes and one awesome scene consisting of ten to twelve women participating in an oral circular daisy chain orgy. Watching that last orgy got me completely wet down there.

"I became so aroused, that as soon as the lesbian video was over, on my own initiative without any prompting by Eva, I turned to her and started kissing her. The kissing became very passionate and was somewhat similar in intensity as the one you guys saw between Riina and me earlier this evening. Of course, the kissing led to some intense lesbian love making throughout that evening and morning.

"We proceeded to engage in a seemingly whole range of lesbian sexual play techniques including: eating each other out; separately by turns as well as in interchangeable sixty-nine positions. Naturally, we engaged in scissoring and tribbing. To my mind the pièce de résistance was fisting. To this day, I still think my greatest sexual thrill occurred when Eva first fisted my vagina. The ecstasy I experienced was simply out of this world. I forgot how many times we made love on that occasion as it seemed like it was never ending. I'm sure the number of orgasms I experienced was in the double digits.

"Looking back on that occasion, I give full credit to Eva Veermäe for her prescience to discern my latent proclivity for lesbianism, and for her ability to unlock my true passion. I can honestly say that as I was growing up, I had no inclination that I might be a lesbian. I did fit in with all my girl friends, I socialized with them and I did not seem to be any different than any one of them.

"I'm aware there seems to be two schools of intellectual thought regarding homosexuality. One position advocates that one is born either straight or gay. I'm ambivalent on that point, but one of my subsequent lesbian lovers proclaimed she knew she was a lesbian as early as when she was six years old. I naturally scoffed at that assertion. I pointed out to her that at six years old one has no conception of the birds and the bees and one still believes in Santa Claus. In response, she protested that unlike other girls of her age, she did not play with dolls and did not ever dream of herself of becoming a wife with children.

"The other position in the debate is the assertion that actual circumstances which one encounters in life dictates whether one becomes predominantly straight or gay. Perhaps one who inadvertently has a homosexual experience, and enjoys the outcome so much, and so as a result becomes gay for the remainder of his or her life. On the other hand, especially in the case of women who are raped or otherwise sexually abused by men, the abhorrence of such experience is sufficient to extinguish the desire to engage in traditional orthodox straight appropriate consensual sex."

At this point Riina was in a quandary as to the implications of Sylvia's presentation. Riina knew that she, herself, was unequivocally straight, and that was so even though she had indulged with some enjoyable girl-on-girl sex encounters previously, not to mention the clinches with Sylvia during this evening.

As a result she had to ask, "As my understanding of what you are saying Ms Salumets (deliberately utilizing Sylvia's surname to emphasize the seriousness of her question) are you suggesting that anyone can become either straight or gay and that it really depends on choice or just simple preference? As I intimated earlier, I can say I've had sex with other women and I can also safely say I truly enjoyed each such occasion including obviously so far with you tonight. I can also say though I've had even a few not so delightful occasions of sex with men. Nevertheless, I know I can't contemplate on agreeing to having a serious ongoing relationship with a woman no matter how wonderful the sex might be."

Sylvia answered, "I think my argument is a little more subtle and nuanced especially as it applies to myself. I repeat, before that first night with Eva, I believed myself to be straight, or at least well within the norm of heterosexual inclination. I thought I was attracted to boys, but I did not pay much attention to the fact I wasn't super in awe or attracted to any of the males in our high school. I was not really attracted to the boy that busted my cherry. I more or less submitted to him on the basis of curiosity as to finally experience sexual intercourse. And as I said the event although not unpleasant, did not stir up my passion."

Riina offered, "You know Sylvia, your stated attitude towards your male peers while in high school is not so unique as it reminds me of the case of Maia Laaning, my roommate and best friend since we were both seven years old. She didn't surrender her virginity until her nineteenth birthday. By that time, I had already engaged in sex on occasions too numerous to recount or to even remember some of the names of my lovers. You can say I'm a true slut and whore, but I like to adopt Maia's description that I'm a girl with a hearty appetite for sex.

"Anyway, Maia was a virgin holdout for such a long time, for the reason as she alleged, that none of the males at our high school floated her boat. Fortunately, her mother had arranged for tickets at the Alexela Concert Hall to witness a concert starring the Russian super opera stars, the late great baritone Dmitri Arkhangelsky and equally great soprano Anna Nezhdanova. Maia and her mother after the concert were allowed entrance into their dressing room and from there Maia was able to entice Dmitri to subsequently take her cherry."

Andrus quipped sardonically, "Well, I guess if you're considered the most beautiful woman in Estonia, and your stepfather is the Prime Minister, never mind the public popularity of your mother as well, you're bound to be discriminate in your choice of lovers."

Riina smiled and said, "There is no doubt that the man who deflowered Maia Laaning was obviously extremely magnificent. However, what was remarkable afterwards, was the fact that Maia acquired a boyfriend for the remainder of that final year of high school. He was considered by everyone else, including myself, as a loser, mainly because he was held back a year in the requirements of his high school educational curriculum. Maia had intimated to me that her high school lover had a rational explanation for his presumed academic deficiency, such that in reality he was a commendable man meriting her approbation. Well, whatever. In any case, there's no denying that her current boyfriend, Hans Kernumees would be considered a superior catch by every straight female on the campus of the University of Tartu."

Sylvia responded, "There's no denying that Maia Laaning is the most remarkable woman of our generation in Estonia. I'm truly thrilled and honored to know her personally as a result of her membership in our sorority: the Corp! Sororitas Estoniae. I'm happy and pleased to know, that she has hooked up with an admirable man who I understand is studying to be a doctor of medicine. It seems obviously like a relationship that cannot possibly be denigrated, no matter how malicious one is prone to strive for the opposite."

Sylvia then proceeded to resume her story, "Now as for me, that first night of sex with Eva Veermäe was analogous for me to figuratively crossing my sexual Rubicon as far as my sexual preference was concerned. We first became acquainted with each other at the start of our first year at high school. I discerned right from the start that Eva was a superior woman and I also soon heard the rumor that she was a lesbian. That though to my mind made our friendship beguiling to me. Looking back on it, I think I agreed to the date more out of curiosity to discover and explore her persona as opposed to really expect something sexual would ensue.

"As you can tell that date proved to be far more exuberant than I had expected and as a result we forged an exclusive relationship for the balance of our high school years. Because of the universal hostility towards the homosexual lifestyle prevalent in Estonian society at the time, our relationship was conducted clandestinely. in other words, we definitely stayed in the closet throughout our affair. I actually do believe that no one in our high school suspected our affair. Neither did my parents who regarded that Eva was merely my best friend from school.

More to the point of who I am, I can truthfully say I wasn't concerned as to the matter of whether I was actually a lesbian. All I knew for certain was that I was truly in love, deeply in love with Eva Veermäe, and I enjoyed every minute I was in her company."

At this point, Riina inquired, "So what happened? I gather the way you're talking you're no longer with her. It goes without saying that otherwise you wouldn't have agreed to tonight's date nor would you have performed sex with me as enthusiastically as you did."

Sylvia answered, "As I said Eva was a brilliant woman. She was miles ahead of intellect than the rest of her peers including myself. As it turned out, she had applied and successfully attained a fully paid academic scholarship from the prestigious London School of Economics and Political Science in the United Kingdom. I have no doubt that should she ever return to Estonia, she would become our next female Prime Minister. However, I suspect she will remain in England or move to Belgium and acquire a responsible position in either the EU or perhaps in NATO. I realize I'm not in her league and most likely will never see her again. At least I can say I sure did enjoy a passionate fun-loving relationship with her."

As her designated date, Rasmus was compelled to protest, "Oh no my sweet Sylvia! There's no need to be down on yourself. You may not be equal to her scholastically, but no one can hold a candle to you in regards to your amazing conviviality. I would wager that this Eva Veermäe yearns after you in London just as much as you miss her here in Tartu."

Sylvia responded, "Thank you again for your kind sweet words, my dear Rasmus. It sure does boost my spirits and ego. In any case, when I started my first academic year last year at the University of Tartu, I was in essence a free spirit. To reiterate, in high school I had one heterosexual experience wherein I deliberately agreed to sex so that I could finally lose my virginity. Which experience I might add was not of the bells and whistles type, but it wasn't an unmitigated disaster either. As to lesbianism, my only such experience was with Eva albeit it consisted of a relationship that lasted about two and a half years*. In my mind, I dismissed the notion that I was strictly a lesbian since I considered Eva as a superior lover who knew exactly how to push my sexual buttons. Besides as for further justification, I believed that Eva's intellect and character were so far above the norm of any potential future lover, male or female, whom I would likely encounter.

(*Estonian children start school in Grade one at seven years of age so long as they are seven years old before October. What is deemed as high School in Estonia consists of three years equivalent to Grades 10, 11 and 12 in high schools in other countries. The ski trip to the Alps occurred in January or February. Both Sylvia and Eva were born either in October, November or December. Thus, they each started their first year of high school when they were seventeen and turned eighteen before the time Eva's parents were skiing at the Alps.)

"In other words, I was naturally focused mainly on my studies at the University and was only mildly interested in pursuing sex. Because I was ambivalent in regard to my sexual orientation, I deliberately sought out sex with men as well as women more or less equally. I found it relatively easy to secure a hook-up with a man, especially since I'm not a two bag lady, and of course Riina has made me aware of that term. All I had to do is go to the tavern near the University (Sylvia mentioned the same tavern wherein Riina first met the Varblane brothers) and I'm pretty sure I could strike up a conversation with a reasonably acceptable man leading up to one night stand.