Why Did I Wait My First Time

'The Third' time was the hottest 'The Forth' was special.

After that night with Paul, my gay proclivities had been fully exposed, and how lucky was I to have a woman that was totally accepting of this aspect of me. When we left Paul's house Layna and I spent the rest of the night in my bedroom talking about it.

She said, "I what to know everything you were thinking while you and Paul doing it. Tell me everything."

I thought for a long while.

Finally, I said, "What was I thinking? A shitload of things. While I was laying in his bed waiting, I was astonished I was even there as I never considered myself anything other than heterosexual. In just a few days I progressed from sucking my first dick to lying in bed waiting for a homosexual guy to come in and do whatever he wanted to me, and I was excited about it. When he came in the room, I was extremely anxious, I looked for you for reassurance, but you were not there. Once he began my mind was consumed by the erotic sensations of what was happening to me. My body was on sensory overload centered on my genitals. I am still sexually aroused thinking about what we did just a few hours ago. It feels unreal. A big part of my excitement was because it was so new to me and seemed so exhilarating and forbidden at the same time. The experimenting with Rocky that weekend of my brother's wedding was great, but it was spontaneous, unplanned, and sometimes awkward. It was premeditated with Paul so there was time for me to contemplate what I was going to do and Paul orchestrated it perfectly, and because you arranged it, I did not have any guilty feelings about cheating on you. Having your blessing made the sex that much more exhilarating. More importantly Paul, unlike Rocky, was no novice. Paul had intimate knowledge of all the various erogenous zones of a man's body. He was an expert at giving and prolonging pleasure. He took the sex to another level of sensual excitement. It was only my second experience with a guy, but he made it much more erotic and fulfilling than the first time. I have always been an oral person so sucking a dick came somewhat naturally, but the way Paul set me up for anal sex was unbelievable erotic."

"The way he massaged my ass. The way he touched it so sensuously with his fingers and then his tongue. The way he inserted his fingers in my ass and worked them around preparing my anal passage for his cock. By the time he applied the lube I was begging to have him put it in. I was on an extreme sexual high when he started to penetrate me, but even then, my excitement continued to escalate as he only put the head of his dick in me. He paused there with just the head in me for what seemed like an eternity. He moved it around slowly inching it back and forth. After that exquisite rim teasing, he slowly pushed his cock fully into my anus. He slow fucked me for a long time, and I got so absorbed in the intensity of it that my passion for anal sex was born. Once I had a taste of that intensity, I knew I was going to crave it habitually. Near the end of this exquisite ass fucking when he settled his weight on top of me and quickened his pace, I knew he was going to cum soon. My arousal was peaking and I was thrusting back at him urgently awaiting his climax. I felt him tense so I knew it was time, I held myself still, gripped his shaft by tightening my anus, and as he shot into me, I could feel each distinct pulse of his cum coursing through his cock. To feel a man's cock jerking in my ass with his body weight pressing down on top of me, his hot breath in my ear, the stubble of his five o'clock shadow digging into my neck and shoulder, and his deep masculine groans as his cock throbbed in my ass was as erotic as anything I have ever experienced. That was an incredibly intense sexual experience knowing that it was my anal muscles that milked that cum from his cock. I hope you understand and appreciate what you have uncovered in me by introducing me to Paul. I love you for making this happen."

Layna exclaimed, "Wow. That was hot. When you say I spurred something in you exactly what did you mean? As I said before I suspected you had gay proclivities and my suspicions have been confirmed; However, listening to your expressive account I must admit I am a little apprehensive. You have taken to this side of your sexuality with passion. I was never concerned with your proclivities before because our emotional and sexual relationship seemed too strong. Your bisexual awaking has not diminished our sexual relationship, has it? You will still want to fuck me, won't you?"

"Absolutely, you are the person I love. You have nothing to worry about my feelings for you are as strong as ever maybe stronger now. I am in love with you and sex with you is fantastic. When I say spurred something in me, I mean I have discovered that sex with a guy is something I like, but it is completely physical. I do not have emotional connections to Paul or even Rocky like I do for you. I am sure there are schools of thought that would classify me as homosexual because of what I just did with Paul, but I do not consider myself homosexual. I think to be considered homosexual a man's affection for another man would have to be much deeper than just sex. It would require a much deeper life commitment to the person themselves. I have that with you, but I cannot have those same strong feelings for a guy; However, sucking a cock and getting fucked in the ass is something I discovered I like it. You are the one I love so having sex with you is an intense emotional connection. Sex with someone else is different as it is just a physical act. With you it is much more poignant. I do regret cheating on you with Rocky. I am sorry I did it without your consent. I will not cheat on you again."

She slipped under the covers and started sucking my dick. A moment later she had her finger up my ass and not long after that I was cumming in her mouth. She stayed under the covers fondling my cock, balls, and anus. She was good at it, and I laid there taking in the feeling. My cock softened but she kept playing with it and putting it in her mouth sucking it and swirling it around her tongue. She stayed down there for a long time.

When she finally emerged, we kissed passionately. Our tongues mingled and I could taste a hint of my semen. I began thinking about how lucky I was. She found out what happened between me and Rocky, and after a brief time to come to terms with it she told me she wanted to be there the next time. I told her Rocky lived too far away for that to happen anytime soon. She asked me if I would be willing to do it with someone else. I agreed and she set me up with her gay friend Paul. She watched, without interfering, the two of us have sex. He took his time with me and gave Layna the exceptional man on man sex exhibition she wanted. Once he climaxed in my ass and rolled off me Layna was so aroused, by what she had just seen, that she climbed on top of me, mounted my rock-hard cock, and fucked me until we both came right there in front of Paul. My wonderful erogenous girlfriend encouraged me to explore my gay desires with her friend. She not only encouraged me, but she was so into it she joined in and finished me off. She is one kinky sexy woman, and I love her for it. I am glad she discovered that hickey Rocky left on my neck. I was amazed by her response. The gay sex was very erotic but with her watching and enjoying it added an aspect that was unbelievably surreal to me. I love Layna now more than ever. Having sex with Paul was great but knowing my girl got satisfaction by watching us made it better.

I said, "I love you, thank you for indulging me and letting me explore my sexuality further. This whole night was amazing. When did you come in the room? When he came in the bedroom I saw he left the door open, but I did not see you. Where were you?"

"Paul and I talked for a short while before he went to you. He thought it was best if you had some time to reflect in case you changed your mind. He told me he was going to take his time and give you the full treatment. I asked him what that meant and he told me what he was going to do. I was wondering if you were going to let him go that far. We went to the bedroom and from the hallway I saw you laying on your back naked in the bed. I was surprised when I saw you like that, I expected you to be sitting there waiting but you were naked and ready to go. You erect penis was looking eager to get started. Paul went in and I stayed in the hall and watched. I saw the whole thing. I got so excited watching you two as it was the most erotic thing I have ever seen. When you turned over on your stomach I moved quietly into the room and sat on the chair. I watched for a while then reached in my pants and touched myself. I was so wet down there, but it was hard to masturbate with my pants on. I was apprehensive about exposing myself with Paul there as I did not know how you would feel about me being naked in front of another guy, but you were both naked, so I pulled my pants down to my knees. Once I got my pants down and started rubbing myself, I came within seconds. Paul was watching me, but I did not care as I could not take my eyes off you guys. I was transfixed watching him prepare your ass and I came a second time when he shoved his dick in you. When he shoved himself hard against you and I saw his ass flexing I knew he was cumming inside of you. When he finished and rolled off you, I saw you had an erection, I could not wait, I was compelled to fuck you. I kicked my clothes off and mounted you. I did not care that Paul was there. That was the hottest sex of my life."

I did mention to her that I was surprised at first when she got naked in front of Paul, but that I it stunned me when she mounted my cock right in front of him. I was so turned on I did not care I just relished the feeling; besides, I was in no position to judge. I was delighted that she got that excited. She said she did not think twice about it and figured why not we were all breaking boundaries. It was hot watching her naked breast bouncing up and down as she rode my cock with Paul right there playing with my nipples.

We began to talk about what it meant to our relationship. I reiterated that the sex with him was good, but I had no emotional connection to him. I told her that I loved her and my love was only enhanced by her acceptance of my sexual appetites. She said that she loved me too. She affirmed there was nothing wrong with my appetites if it stayed just sex, but she added a stipulation.

She was ok with it if it was only something we did together. She did not want me having sex with guys indiscriminately, and if we did it again it should be prearranged and agreed to by both of us. I thought this could turn into something even more interesting as a full-on threesome always intrigued me. I asked her if she wanted to be involved too. She said she was not sure about that, but she liked how it played out with Paul this time. She said she liked just watching us and joining me after we finished was an added benefit. I said that we need to set down rules that we needed a plan for our relationship going forward.

We had been dating for a few years. We had a serious meaningful relationship. As we were moving our relationship further, we felt that it was important to lay down some ground rules for our sexual relationship. We discussed some rules and put them in writing as follows.

Sex is primarily between us but occasionally adding another guy was ok.

No other woman.

I can have gay sex but only if she is present.

No threesome Layna only wanted to watch she was not interested in sex with the other guy.

For the near-term Paul was to be the only one (Rocky was ok too if he came for a visit).

No hooks-ups/one-night stands.

If either wanted to stop before, during, or after then the other would agree.

My homosexual proclivities stay between us and Paul (and Rocky).

We committed to each other and decided to move in together with the intention of getting engaged if this arrangement works out good for both.

We understood this was an unconventional arrangement. This type of arrangement might cause difficulties for a relationship; However, I did not foresee any undue risk in our agreement. She was the one for me and if she liked watching me having sex with a guy that added to my attraction to her. I had the best of both worlds a woman I loved and her acceptance/participation in my homosexual desires. We agreed that we should limit the frequency of how often we do it. We both felt that partaking occasionally was better, to keep it special and by preplanning and savouring the excitement of anticipation. We both signed and dated our list. We had an understanding and go forward plan. We decided to take the next step and get an apartment together.

It took a few months to find an apartment. Layna's parents were not happy about her moving out as she was only nineteen. She insisted on moving against her parent's wishes. We both had jobs and we found a nice apartment near downtown. We moved in together and I loved coming home and spending every night with her. I knew for a long time that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. We had some great sex and the first night in our apartment set the trend perfectly.

Once we got all our furniture moved in and the bed set up, we sat in the living room relaxing. We started making out on the couch when she looked at me and told me go to the bedroom and lay in the bed naked and wait for her like I did that night with Paul. I thought that was kind of provocative as we had not talked about Paul in months. I did what she said, and when I got to the bedroom, I took off my clothes and laid on my back on the bed. I waited a long time while she was in the other room. Layna mentioning the night with Paul got me thinking about when he first came into the bedroom and started touching me so sensuously. My cock started getting hard and precum began to drip from the tip stimulated by those memories. I had my eyes closed reliving that night when I heard Layna come into the bedroom.

I opened my eyes and I was astonished. She was standing at the foot of the bed with her fabulous naked body on display. I took in the marvellous sight of shapely female form, her magnificent breast fully exposed, her perfectly symmetrical nipples sticking out, the flesh of her flat tight stomach, the seductive womanly curve of her waist and hips, and hanging between her legs was a man-sized flesh-colored realistic cock dildo. It was a strap-on cock that had a nice lifelike head and realistic veins running the length of a seven-inch shaft. She took it in her hand and started moving her hand up and down on it like she was slowly jacking off. She was preparing it by rubbing lubricate along its length.

I watched this sexy woman walk to the side of the bed as her cock swayed back and forth. Layna climbed on the bed, slid over toward me, lifted her leg over me as her cock was dangling above me, and straddled my legs. She grabbed her cock and my cock with her hands and gave both cocks a two-handed stroke job. She let them drop on my stomach, placed her hands on the bed by my shoulders, lowered herself down onto me, and I felt her hard nipples on my chest as laid on me. She started kissing me passionately while she rubbed her lubed-up cock on my precum soaked erection. She was grinding into me hard, and I began pumping back at her. We were both squirming our bodies into each other. I wrapped my arms around her back, squeezed her tight, and pulled her breasts against my chest. We continued to kiss, and I rolled her over and got on top of her. I was moving my groin back and forth on her cock taking in the feeling of my erection sliding against Her's. I pushed myself up and looked down at her beautiful tits and her glistening cock laying against her abdomen it was long enough to cover her belly button.

Looking down at this image of my sexy girlfriend's perfect female form with a huge cock between her legs was an extremely erotic sight. I pulled my legs up and kneeled between her legs which spread her legs wide across my thighs. I grabbed her cock and started jacking it off. She was lying flat on her back looking up and straight into my eyes. She had a look of wanton lust in them. I went down on her and started sucking her cock. She started moaning and moving her pelvis back and forth. I kept my head still as she fucked my mouth. I reached between the gap in her harness and inserted my finger into her vagina. She groaned loudly. I pushed my index and middle finger into her vagina and rubbed my thumb on her clitoris. She began humping hard on my fingers and her cock was moving rapidly back and forth in my mouth. Her pelvis suddenly elevated shoving her cock deeper into my mouth which caused me to gag as she was coming hard on my hand. She had either an exceptionally long orgasm or several mini ones because she was suspended with her hips in the air quivering for over a minute. That whole time I was sucking on her cock. She finally collapsed back on the bed with her cock standing straight up from her body.

It was my turn now. I reached for the lube she left on the nightstand and spread a liberal amount on my hole and her cock. I straddled her and sat down on her dildo. She watched as the flesh-coloured shaft disappeared into me.

After it was fully in me, she looked up into my eyes and said, "Do you like my cock? I bought it for you."

I said, "I love your cock, and I love you for thinking of my needs."

With that I started rocking on her. I could feel the entire length of her shaft sliding along my anal ring. I gripped it with my ring muscles as I slid along it. We just looked into each other's eyes as I rode her. I leaned in and kissed her and whispered in her ear how good it felt being fucked by the woman I love. She hugged me tightly and started moving her pelvis vigorously. I sat back up on top of her and began jacking off. I was jacking my cock as she was plunging Her's in and out of me. I sat back down hard on it and ground my ass on her shaft. I could feel a climax building, and I quickened my pace. She said cum for me baby and I shot a load straight her chest. My first stream landed in the indention of her neck. I shot four more streams between and on her breasts the last few pulses were not as hard and trickled into her belly button. A string of cum was hanging from the tip of my cock and I wiped that on her abdomen.

I leaned in again to kiss her, and she told me to I had a mess to clean up.

I began to move down her body when she said, "stop."

She handed me and wet wipe she had in the drawer and told me to wipe her cock clean.

I was looking down at her tits and stomach covered in streams of my cum. She reached up to her neck, scoop up a puddle of cum, and placed the cum on the head of her dick. She retrieved as much semen as she could from her chest and abdomen and placed all of it on the head of her cock. As she placed it there it would drip down the length. It looked like it had just ejaculated and the cum belonged to her dildo.

She said, "You can clean my neck, tits, and stomach but first I want you to seductively clean my cum off my cock."

I did not hesitate. I positioned myself between her legs. I took the base of her cock in my hand and leaned the head of it to my lips. I spread her cum along my lips as I licked its head clean. I then went down to her balls where much of her semen had accumulated. I suck a pool of her semen into my mouth and swirled it around. I opened my mouth and showed her. I slurped as much cum as was there. I then licked the length of her long shaft as I looked into her eyes. I got to the top and sucked the head in. I swirled my tongue around the head then slid my lips down the length then slowly licked up the opposite side. I licked and slurped her seven inches for a long time.